seize the limit-

i'm good at making myself laugh.

2009-03-23T17:49:21Z

singing internet acronyms to the tune of whatever song is on the radio while at work = HILARIOUS.

EEEEEEELLLLLLL OOOOOO EEEEELLLLLLL ZEEEEEEEEEEE

OHHHHHHHH EMMMMMM (or MAHHHHHHHHH) GEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

oh! m. mah GEE-E-E

more <3 4life

2009-03-17T20:24:26Z

[16:18] uselessjesus: mom says "you no say hi!" when i walk in the house
4:13 PM
and i just scream HIIIIIIII MOM I HATE MY LIFFFFFFFE!
[16:18] caress and kiss: ahhahahahaha
[16:18] caress and kiss: seriosuly
[16:18] caress and kiss: ?!
[16:18] caress and kiss: that is so fucking AWESOME
[16:18] caress and kiss: hahahahahahah
[16:18] uselessjesus: yea
[16:18] caress and kiss: what was her responsE?
[16:19] uselessjesus: STUPID!
[16:19] uselessjesus: and then i said UR STUPID
[16:19] uselessjesus: best conversation in my short life
[16:19] caress and kiss: ahahahhahahahahahaha
[16:19] caress and kiss: did you really say you're stupid too?!
[16:20] uselessjesus: yeah i said "ur stupid!"
[16:20] caress and kiss: hahahahaha
[16:20] uselessjesus: after she told me i was stupid
[16:20] caress and kiss: and her reply?
[16:20] uselessjesus: some grunt
[16:20] caress and kiss: ahahaha
[16:20] uselessjesus: like "hrmph!"
[16:20] caress and kiss: that owns hard

oh life

2009-03-11T18:34:11Z

there is something beautiful in all of this. all it takes is time.

[14:22] caress and kiss: oh god being here so bored makes me hate my life
[14:23] caress and kiss: i thought my roommate was gone this morning
[14:23] caress and kiss: and i rolld out of bed late on purpose
[14:23] uselessjesus: Owlens
[14:23] caress and kiss: but i was getting a tank top out
[14:23] caress and kiss: and i yelled
[14:23] caress and kiss: "I HATE MY LIIIIIIFE"
[14:23] caress and kiss: and i walked out to brush mah teef
[14:23] caress and kiss: and realized she was there, and probably heard
[14:23] caress and kiss: hahahahhahahahahah
[14:23] caress and kiss: ownz
[14:24] uselessjesus: HhahahahHAQHAHAH
[14:24] uselessjesus: That owns hard
[14:24] caress and kiss: yea it makes me laugh too, just thinking about what she thought after she heard that
[14:24] caress and kiss: fuuuuuuck i'm laughing out loud at work
[14:26] uselessjesus: Im gonna start screaming how i feel in the morning
[14:26] uselessjesus: For the ultimate in truth
[14:26] uselessjesus: I shall live my life wearing no mask
[14:26] uselessjesus: Aka RAW FUCKKKKK FUCKKKKK FUCKKKKKK
[14:27] uselessjesus: Over 16 hours
[14:27] caress and kiss: ahhahahahahhahaha
[14:27] caress and kiss: whileAT work too
[14:27] uselessjesus: Basically whenever my eyes open ill just be screa,ing FUCKKKKKKK
[14:27] uselessjesus: Oh definitely
[14:27] caress and kiss: HAHAHAHAH
[14:27] caress and kiss: I WAS GOING TO PUT THAT
[14:27] caress and kiss: "basically: FUUUUUUUUUUCK WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKK, FUCK THISSSSS"

Hello?? HELLO??!

2009-03-04T04:58:53Z

MORE ACTION!

LESS TEARS!

<3

i really do enjoy reading my old livejournal posts though, goddamn. it's so whack to worry about the future, but i'm glad i hinted in tidbits where i wanted to be now, then. in my heart i knew i'd be in CT for at least a couple more years after graduation, even if it didn't always seem that way. how i feel in this moment, is that it may always be normal for me to want to leave someplace after living there for a couple of years. contrary to what is typically virgo-esque: routine bores the shit out of me. YET to a certain extent is so fucking comforting. i like spontaneity, but who doesn't anyway? the same goes for stability. what i really want to know: WHY DO 'S'-WORDS OWN SO HARD?!?!!?!? quite possibly the best letter ever.

oh fck

2007-07-14T22:05:27Z

-outfits
-paperwork
-bills/checking account
-fingerprints
-organizing/packing
-umm a place to live by august 1st would be nice...
-start work this monday (pay/benefits!)

my life for the next 2 weeks is going to be very stressful. i'm feeling very scared and , actually a lot of disbelief THAT: i'm moving out, for real. my room will be gone.
and
it's sad

my parents don't support this because it's "too far away from home." doesn't make anything easier.

i have a lot of things to be thankful for, such as amazing friends helping me out in so many ways and a boyfriend who cares even though i never get t o see him cause of the lame summer camp he works at.

but, seriously, fuck.

nothingtoadd @ 2007-07-01T22:46:00

2007-07-02T02:51:06Z

this summer: trips to connecticut, new hampshire, pennsylvania, maine and rhode island.
i could never settle out of new england.

traveling is wonderful, though.

i love my life. the next few days are going to be great <3

i am going to cry.

2007-04-17T16:29:49Z

so graduation is basically one month away. what the fuck? i never thought i'd be so upset about this, considering at the beginning of the Spring semester i was super bummed out about being here. some things i was looking at negatively turned out for the better, and i am thankful for the people who have become a more prominent part of my life this semester. the root of anxiety that i am feeling now is stemming from this one paper that i have to do, the rest of the work that needs to be done isn't bothering me at all--well, the april 26th deadline for so many assignments is a major stress factor as well...but i know i can do it, and i know it'll get done.

the poetry reading this past weekend was wonderful! my mom read some of her stuff at the end :D my friends were there for support, and dustin even got to go with his parents who were visiting from iowa! it was lovely <33

maybe sometime i'll post my favorite poem that got published in the journal.. but i need to keep working on this paper! no more procrastination via livejournal kthx.

nothingtoadd @ 2007-03-19T13:54:00

2007-03-19T18:55:23Z

one of the goals of the creative writing capstone class is to try and get your work published.

well, i did :)
in the chopper poetry journal based out of new london, CT.

so there is a premier/reading weekend mid-april. i am going to the friday date: april 13th at city perk in norwich from 6-8pm.

i want people to go.

this doesn't sound like i'm excited, but i am. i'm just tired.

nap!

nothingtoadd @ 2007-03-11T18:24:00

2007-03-11T22:26:19Z

flight got cancelled.
next flight we could get on wouldn't arrive in costa rica until wednesday.

so, i'll be in CT next week, most likely getting hammered every night.

oh fridayy oh saturday oh february halfway over

2007-02-17T01:31:30Z

february is typically the bane of my existance, however there is a lot to look forward to and it actually makes the days not seem as long.

job situation: 90% (umm may 21st) same deal.

spring break?? massachusetts.
week after spring break? costa rica!@#$%^!@#$%^&%$#@!

dr. den ouden invited me to help him set up a study abroad program that uha students would go on next year. all i have to pay for is airfare; he is covering all other expenses. i will be in costa rica fro a week working on rainforest preservation and micro-credit projects for women. my life seriously rulzzz.

every thursday-saturday i've been in the company of amazing friends and good (bad) beerz. hartford really bums me out, but i'm surrounded by great people who make it more than worth-while. oddly enough, earlier i found myself a little bit sad that there's only 10 weeks left. wtffffff

i love it when i have enough time to cook an excellent dinner.

time to drink pbr and do homework that was due last night lolzasfdgh8

spring '07? ummmmm wot is going on

2007-01-22T08:12:46Z

soon as i got back, adam, jess & jon rang the doorbell :D
they had to help me carry stuff in (thx guyz)
tomorrow is dinner @ ginza if i can come up with the cash, and getting settled in for my crazy tuesday that's to come. actually, every tuesday and thursday is going to suck.. 8:30am-10pm days, yuck.

there is no point; i'm just entirely too anxious.

fucking loans.

2007-01-09T20:24:16Z

silly me to think interest would also be deferred while i'm away in eastern europe for 2 years with the peace corps, a government organization. you'd think they'd help out more with deferrment for those who want to join fairly immediately after college. my parents were helping me out by making interest payments monthly, and the last payment toward interest was one i actually made in june of 2006 for $700. guess how much interest has accrued toward my loans since then? $1,955.60. i'm not fucking kidding. basically, by the time i fucking graduate, i will have around $50,000 in debt (a little less). if it increased that much in such a short amount of time, i don't even want to know what 2 years would do.

i want to make a difference, but i don't want to rake up $20,000+ more in interest on my college loans. all i can think about is den ouden talking about how debt keeps a stronghold over american citizens, preventing their freedom and dignity. i know there are different magnitudes to this, but it's fucking true when it comes down to it. FUCK.

it also sucks that president bush fucked everyone graduating 2007 - on in the ass by not letting us consolidate our loans. oh yea, i had one last opportunity to consolidate--if i started paying them back right after taking that step (ha ha). HOW ABOUT LOCKING IN TO ONE INTEREST RATE!?!?11 SORRY, YOU CAN'T!~!`1

fucking. FUCK. financial obligations drive me nuts. you really have no idea how bad it eats me up inside to think about my loans and interest building up on them. i can 99% guarantee you i will begin paying off my loans before the 6-month grace period is up, that's how terrible it is. i think it's because my mother beat it into my brain to "ALWAYS PAY BILLS OFF IN FULL IF YOU CAN, PAY AS MUCH AS YOU CAN TOWARD EACH ONE !!!" truly horrifying, but good in the long-run. makes me glad i've taken the safe route throughout college; independence hasn't begun for any of us yet.

it's like when i see people who have never left their town, still living at home. they haven't changed at all, unless if they've gotten worse. they haven't grown at all. taking the college step, i feel like everyone grows and changes in some way (for better or for worse) and that it IS a genuine step towards independence--still, not quite there. it will be refreshing to graduate and refreshing to begin job-hunting in march/apartment-hunting in april. i'm ready. the majority of other people i talk to are scared. i'm not sure what that means, really, but i know may 20th will be a huge day of celebration.

4 months left.

pretty good year

2006-12-24T20:01:23Z

my friends are beautiful and i love them all. 2006 was pretty rockin', but '07 is definitely going to be better. major changes will be happening, but that's exactly why it will be better. i can't wait to find out where i'll be sent for the peace corps!!! it's driving me nuts. i want my interview to be soonsoonsoon!

massachusetts has been nothing but a blast so far!! i can't believe how much fun i've had so far over break, srsly blows my mind.

<3

merry christmas~!@#

hmmm

2006-12-09T18:25:52Z

it's a little bit sketchy the next afternoon when you wake up immediately hoping none of your ridiculous drunk dial conversations got you into trouble or weird terms, hahhaha

last night we had an awesome party with decorated sugar cookies and wine glasses and christmas decorations, it was really nice! although i think it got a bit too sexual for me toward the end of the night, after it got broken up.

i can't wait to move off campus!!

today is:
work 2-4, homework, throwdown around 10:30
yessssssssss<3!

awesome:

2006-10-08T01:00:49Z

-late night drives til 4am to creepy cemetaries in manchester, glastonbury and burlington
-1st radio show, featuring mike, huff, waters & dorie
-slumber parties
-mo's
-being at home nowww
-king richard's faire tomorrow
-getting a ton of homework done (and doing well), knowing my schedule already for spring semester, feeling like my grades this semester will be the best i've ever gotten
-the $135 i made from working this past week!
-MINUS THE BEAR THIS WEDNESDAY AT THE MIDDLE EAST!!!!!!!
-SATURDAY OCTOBER 21st 2006 7PM - 12:30AM
Legends of Style Presents: FUTURE SHOCK

Future Shock will showcase artwork from a record 45 artists and designers
from across the country. In true LOS tradition, each artist will be
unveiling new art, exclusive to this show, which represents their
interpretation of the notion of the "future" and what it means to them. Live
painting will also be featured throughout the evening provided by local
artist alliance and creative workhorse Project SF http://www.projectsf.com

http://legendsofstyle.net/artists-gallery.html

Future Shock TIckets
$15 advance / $20 at the door FREE admission to Dewar's VIP reception
(7-8PM) with advance tickets! First five people who get in touch with me can
get on my discounted $10 tickets.
http://legendsofstyle.net/tickets.html

Boston Center for the Arts 539 Tremont Street, Boston, MA

+++++++++++++++++++tattoo appointment at chameleon this day! and getting tattooed on sunday!

holy fuck, life rules. hopefully next week i can continue staying on top of my homework. tonight i also got a TON of research done for my paper due oct. 23rd in my class w/ denOuden :D

this does not cost numerous $47.50 transactions on your credit card

2006-10-04T21:27:22Z

pearl jam - corduroy & do the evolution
sunset rubdown (current obsession) - hope you don't stoop to dirty words II
every song off of the 10,000 maniacs' "unplugged" album, because natalie merchant's voice is mesmerizing.

i rarely update this anymore, nor do i pay much attention to it, but wanted to share my current favorites with everyone on the interweb.

apple fucking sucksszzzz

2006-09-18T07:15:44Z

seriously.

third broken 60 gb ipod, and i treat it like it's my child.

i am so happy i bought the 2-year warranty, but what am i going to do when it's up?

THIS IPOD ONLY LASTED 2 WEEKS

I FUCKING HATE APPLE SO MUCH

FUCK YOUUUUUUUUU APPLE

this is pretty much friends-only; not today

2006-05-30T16:06:35Z

are you a lurker?

that's sweet.

senior year; fall schedule

2006-05-14T00:16:38Z

Monday:
General Bio 12:30pm - 1:20pm,
Are Freedom and Dignity Possible? 1:30 - 2:45

Tuesday:
Literature: Margaret Atwood 2:05pm - 3:20pm
Studies in Women's Writings 3:30 - 4:45

Wednesday:
General Bio Lab 9:30am - 12:00pm
General Bio 12:30pm - 1:20pm,
Are Freedom and Dignity Possible? 1:30 - 2:45

Thursday:
Literature: Margaret Atwood 2:05pm - 3:20pm
Studies in Women's Writings 3:30 - 4:45
Poetry 7:30pm - 10:00pm

Friday:
General Bio 12:30pm - 1:20pm

how many of you already have an answer to that question?
i'm really excited for the class though, it's an honors course with DEN OUDEN! yayyyy

and the only thing that sucks about this schedule is Wednesday's bio lab. other than that, no problems with classes beinning at 12:30pm. oh wait, thursday night 7:30-10pm block sucks too, but i know the class will be amazing so it won't even matter!

<33333

2006-05-12T17:52:08Z

hello mr. zebra,
can i have your sweater?
cause it's cold, cold, cold
in my hole, hole, hole

hmm

2006-05-07T21:16:19Z

i'm pretty sure i just stared at my computer screen and got nothign accomplished in like 40 minutes.

sweet!

not prepared

2006-05-03T13:50:58Z

HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

hey :)

2006-04-21T15:53:51Z

i'm going to england this summerrrrr
then to colorado w/ nick and my family :D

i need to get my passport stuff taken care of TODAY!
so i'm going to go do that, but first i need to eat before my stomache implodes!

HOORAY

if you celebrate 4:20 like a real holiday,

2006-04-20T21:59:43Z

i pretty much hate you.

terrible bands

2006-04-16T07:03:39Z

panic! at the disco, taking back sunday, the used

and the 934802193841204820412094812904 trillionzzz of other bands that sound exactly the same as those listed above:

fuck them.

alas, (vague) substance follows:

-easter is delicious, brendan surprised me with lovely gifts so far :D
-i am extremely satisfied with my life as of late
-...i'm even looking forward to the future!
-oddly enough, i find myself wishing i had a place to live in CT during the summer. then i could have two jobs instead of being in massachusetts and having no job over the summer, and of course i'd be closer to nick!
-nick and i are continually getting closer and closer, and i honestly can say i have never felt so strongly for anyone else in my life<333
-i'm STOKED for next year! living in the 3s with some fly ladies ;)
-...and graduating!
-last, but certainly not least, i have to go to bedddddddddddddddd so i can wake up for easter festivities.
yes, my brother and i still get baskets. and we still find easter eggs. but next year we decided we're going to hide them on our parents, hahaha